SHA TRENT'S ENG 241 SPRING 2011: May 2011

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Final Post

I would very much like to express thanks and gratitude to everyone that I had the pleasure of meeting, learning from and intellectually growing with. I have learned more from my ENG 241 classmates, than I've learned from those of other classes combined. And, to Dr. Brandon, it has been a true pleasure and profound experience to have been led through the journey of Early American Literature and beyond, by a true scholar on the subjects, such as yourself.

Again, thank you.

Sha Trent

Learning Reflection Week 11

The past few weeks were interesting since we began reading about the Benjamin Franklin, the Constitution, Thomas Jefferson and church and state. Although, I am familiar with Franklin’s accomplishments, there was so much more to him than I’d ever known. A good example of this is his move from New England to Pennsylvania. I was really engaged in the discussion regarding how he must have felt being in a new place, unfamiliar with the customs and practices. Dr. Brandon led a discussion that painted a picture of what the first day in a ‘new world’ must have been like.

I felt most engaged, when we had the class discussion regarding what we each thought about American democratic discourse and the church’s place in the state. It was fascinating to hear everyone’s thoughts surrounding the matter. Although, there are times when I want to close my ears to some of the ‘conversations’ taking place, I have found that there is much to be learned from those around me, including those I’d rather not be in the presence of….but learning is learning, regardless of where and from whom its learned.

Final Portfolio

English 241 was undoubtedly the most appealing English/Literature course I’ve ever taken. The structure of the class is one that should be a model for college courses. Along with the fresh approach of utilizing a blog http://trenteng241spring11.blogspot.com/ to showcase our work, communicating in both an intimate (classroom) and online setting http://eng241.weebly.com/index.html is very attractive, and has proven to be the most essential part of learning in this class. In class, we’ve discussed and debated (respectably and sometimes otherwise) our points and views, and it has served well in providing perspective for reflection and writing assignments. The online General Assembly http://eng241.weebly.com/general-assembly-s11.html , which is the consistent and very active discussion board that we spend a lot of time conversing, sharing and learning in, has also been crucial to this learning experience. Although, I was intimidated by the idea of having to utilize the internet, exclusively for assignments http://eng241.weebly.com/assignments-s11.html , it has turned out to be the catalyst necessary to successfully complete this course. And, ultimately have been the least expensive and time consuming, because there were so many resources that were available, provided, hyperlinked and free of charge. Having so much of the work literally at my finger tips enabled me to focus primarily on the subject opposed to the burden of lengthy and costly searches to locate the information required to complete the assignments. With the assistance of the entire class and professor, I can honestly say that I have been provided every possible avenue needed complete the requirements of this class.

Critiquing the work of others has always proven to be somewhat troublesome, as I think that writing is as unique as finger prints and each individual piece should be recognized and accepted, as such. Though, there are also various aspects relating to each key element that requires the ability to process the texts and information, producing a profound knowledge surrounding both the writer and their work is the most significant.

Analyzing the work of others, was far less invasive for me, but equally troublesome. A perfect example when describing the challenges of analyzing the work of other writers is one of the poems by Edgar Allan Poe http://www.poetryloverspage.com/poets/poe/poe_ind.html . Having always read and loved Poe’s dark and eerie poems, I’ve never had the opportunity to descend into the ‘nature’ of his work. Conscious of Poe’s personal life and shortcomings, I understood ‘why’ he wrote the way he did. However, my awareness failed to recognize ‘how’ he wrote the way he did, his emotions beyond the apparent macabre. I’d never associated his work to sadness, only madness. In the class reading and discussion of, The Raven http://www.eapoe.org/works/poems/ravenh.htm , I felt as if I’d never ‘read’ it before. I walked away with a sense of loneliness and loss, not the customary creepiness that previously followed. Without the thorough analysis of this work, I’d have completely missed the point that Poe was trying to convey in the poem. . Since reading is a strong point of mine, I didn’t place very much emphasis on it, which gave me what I needed to prepare for analyzing it.

As mentioned above, I am proficient in the key elements of the course, with the exception of analyzing the text. Before this class I was somewhat challenged by the ability to intentionally ‘see’ what is not apparent in all writing. Having only been previously capable of comprehending most of what is being substantiated based upon the mood/tone of the work; I have gained proficiency in reading between the lines. An example of my proficiency in reading, writing and thinking critically can be assessed in regards J. Hector St. John Crevecoeur’s, Letter III: What Is an American http://xroads.virginia.edu/~hyper/crev/letter03.html . Having read this piece, I was able to assess (in comparison) the contrasts and the similarities our personal views as to what defines an American. Another example would be my assignment relating to the work of, Henry David Thoreau’s Walden, or Life in the Woods http://etext.virginia.edu/toc/modeng/public/ThoWald.html . Reading this experience was imperative in critical thinking. While reading his experience in, Walden, I constantly saw myself in Thoreau’s place. Although, I love nature, I detest total isolation and deprivation from my favorite things. Naturally ‘feeling’ what the writer has written has provided me with the proper understanding of and the ability to critically think and write about what American Romantic literature and the concepts of what Beauty and Sublime are.

The ‘Time Travel and Defining Literature’ discussion in Week One http://general-assembly-online-discussion-forum-eng-241-spring-2011.984948.n3.nabble.com/Discussion-Week-One-Time-Travel-and-Defining-Literature-tp2234374p2389091.html provides an illustration of my skills in academic argumentation, evaluation and synthesis of information. The discussion starters for Week Fifteen also stimulated my ability to look into situations, find the key components, break down each element with the intention of defining the overall principles associated with it and forming an understandable view that is widely acceptable. http://general-assembly-online-discussion-forum-eng-241-spring-2011.984948.n3.nabble.com/Week-Fifteen-Discussion-Starter-Part-B-td2838548.html As a result of this, I am able to able to utilize the information from the texts and explain how and why I feel the way I do regarding the subjects. This is one of many assignments that gave me the opportunity to reflect on and explain my feelings. The assignment requiring me to devise a list of virtues is by far the most thought provoking, to date. It’s forcing me to really look into myself and how I see myself, both internally and externally. This course serves as a chief catalyst to both, my becoming a better writer and person. http://trenteng241spring11.blogspot.com/2011/02/living-full-life-and-defining-your-best.html

One of my goals was to work on various facets of Literary Knowledge, and during the course, I’ve learned to discern and apply the distinction of terminology associated with specific themes in literature in both formal and informal communication. I feel that the tone of the work denotes the formalities. Thoreau wrote in, Walden, what he felt and experienced, which provided a profound sense of intimacy and longing for life. I walked away from this assignment with both an enhanced outlook on the relationship between nature and human kind. http://general-assembly-online-discussion-forum-eng-241-spring-2011.984948.n3.nabble.com/Week-Five-Discussion-Walking-Nature-and-the-Romantic-Sublime-tp2443167p2498464.html Go Down, Moses http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Go_Down_Moses, illustrates the perseverance those people possessed for their desire to be freed from bondage. In Common Sense http://www.ushistory.org/paine/commonsense/singlehtml.htm , Thomas Paine, vigilantly wrote to the American people concerning adverse situations that were taking place and how to deal with it.

In this class, communication played a major role. I really like the interaction amongst my classmates. I also appreciate the diverse views, opinions and personalities of everyone. Prime examples of how the class discussions are influencing me, are relative to character and open-mindedness. While interacting with my classmates and professor, I’ve gained some new perspective. I am learning that all the rights that we have in this country, are rights. Also, an individual’s choice to exercise that right is not wrong, despite how tasteless it may be. I have also learned that tolerance is a very broad situation, and that I’m not the only one making sacrifices to honor someone else’s ‘stuff’, people make the same sacrifice for me and mine. Although, I’ve found it somewhat overwhelming to read and address so much of what everyone writes online, it’s very helpful, as well. The requirements weren’t harsh, but sticking to my original ideas was challenging, yet somehow, I believe that was the purpose.

Often engaged in what the class had to offer, the aspect of the class that stimulated me the most was that my classmates were very free thinking, which provided me with the opportunity to get the most out of the class. During debates, I was able to gain perspective, empathy and clarity through the words and views of others. There were times when these debates led to stern and passionate pleas for understanding and clarification http://plummerkeng241.blogspot.com/2011/04/common-sense.html .Also, the texts required for the class was incredibly eclectic, thus providing significant amounts of literary knowledge from various perspectives.

Realizing that Early American history plays such a significant role in how society works and is influence has astonished me. Although, I recognize the political aspects of history, I’ve never associated it so closely to my modern way of life. This class provided many examples of the foundation, frame and structure of America, its people and future. Through, the works of Thomas Paine http://libertyonline.hypermall.com/Paine/Crisis/Crisis-TOC.html , Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin, James Madison http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Federalist_No._10 and many others, I’ve learned so much of the purpose behind American culture. Also, Early American literature and history has contributed to my ‘understanding’ of what I believe and why. During the course of this class, I’ve reflected and amended some of my beliefs as part of some of my assignments. ‘Thirteen Virtues’ http://trenteng241spring11.blogspot.com/2011/04/thirteen-virtues-in-no-particular-order.html , modeled after Benjamin Franklin http://www.sfheart.com/FranklinsVirtues.html , provided me with a blueprint of how to assess myself and what I needed to do to become a better person, through understanding, patience and humility. As significant as that assignment was in my quest, ‘Week 15’s online discussion starters http://general-assembly-online-discussion-forum-eng-241-spring-2011.984948.n3.nabble.com/Week-Fifteen-Discussion-Starter-Part-A-tp2838524p2838524.html , proved by far to be the major lessons of the course regarding self-assessment and comprehension. I was told to think about and post my spiritual beliefs, read those of my classmates, and then through disagreements, asked to come up with something relating to spiritual faith that everyone could agree on. Wow. That was the most thought provoking situation that I’ve been placed in during this class. And as a result, I can only imagine the depth of what Jefferson had to endure to devise such a concept in a time that was far less tolerant than ours http://www.rjgeib.com/thoughts/lynch/religious-freedom.html . The counter part to the discussion was the most difficult to figure out and express, defining my faith and practices http://general-assembly-online-discussion-forum-eng-241-spring-2011.984948.n3.nabble.com/Week-Fifteen-Discussion-Starter-Part-B-tp2838548p2838548.html . As I was forced to understand, defend and defend my beliefs and practices, I resolved that I partake in certain aspects of all four- Calvinism, Deism, Unitarianism or Anglicanism, thus realizing the apparent contradictions of what I do and do not believe. Never have I had a class that challenged and forced me to assess my entire being. I have had to think about why I believe very personal aspects of my faith, what kind of person I am for believing it and how the choices to continue or cease will affect my life and outlook on life. Although, I’m conflicted on a few issues, I’m so grateful to have had the opportunity to look in and see myself.

The digital technology portion of the class has been mastered. As mentioned above, I was intimidated by the idea of managing a blog, but quickly overcame the obstacle. I have come to really enjoy the online posting as the method of displaying my work, thoughts and opinions. http://trenteng241spring11.blogspot.com/ . I have really enjoyed reading the work of my classmates, and having the opportunity to learn, share and debate amongst them via the blog and General Assembly http://eng241.weebly.com/general-assembly-s11.html . Dr. Brandon’s approach to how this class can and will function productively and successfully is right on, and I hope the opportunity to encounter more like it presents itself.

Finally, having a leader, such as, Dr. Brandon, really gave me the opportunity to gain the appreciation I needed to grow and learn from this course. He encouraged everyone to openly and confidently express their personal views in the public arena, while providing a safe and stable environment to do so. He embraced, constructively criticized and accentuated our thoughts, opinions, views, and etc. Unlike, most instructors, he appealed to all of his students’ abilities to think as independently and freely as possible. And while encouraging our individuality, he compelled and challenged each of us to seek a consensus that would allow everyone’s views to equally matter without prejudice. Dr. Brandon afforded us all the opportunity to share our religious/faith, political and personal views on various subjects. He gave us the power to understand our views related to this country and its rules, and the chance to voice how we would change it…and gave a damn. http://general-assembly-online-discussion-forum-eng-241-spring-2011.984948.n3.nabble.com/Week-Twelve-Improving-the-Constitution-tp2753696p2753696.html He incorporated the methods used to build the foundation of American society into the learning process of this course. Like the freedom this country grants its citizens and visitors, Dr. Brandon, extended to his students. He is admirable and a true honor to have personally learned from.

Overall, this class has provided me with the necessities to have a better life, academically and personally. As a student, I appreciate the lessons that enabled me to have the understanding necessary to comprehend and value Early American Literature and the major contribution is has provided this society and the world I reside in. As a free-thinking person, it has provided me with essentials to becoming a more wholesome person, who can understand my choices and appreciate learning from and accepting others. I know that I have some work to do to fully acquire everything that this class had to offer, but I am confident that I will attain all that I should. English 241 has proven itself to be as innovative as I thought it would have been, and luckily for me, I was prepared to embrace it. In comparison to the English courses I’ve had in the past, this class has challenged both my writing, learning abilities and life choices. Based upon the thoroughness of the lectures and online interaction, I was successfully able to approach all of my assignments from various perspectives to accommodate the requirements and expectations of my professor and the outline of this course.

Penultimate Portfolio

English 241 was undoubtedly the most engaging English/Literature course I’ve ever taken. Along with the fresh approach of utilizing a blog to showcase our work, communicating in both an intimate (classroom) and online setting is very attractive, and has proven to be the most essential part of learning in this class. In class, we’ve discussed and debated (respectably and sometimes otherwise) our points and views, and it has served well in providing perspective for reflection and writing assignments. The online General Assembly, which is the consistent and very active discussion board that we spend a lot of time conversing, sharing and learning in, has also been crucial to this learning experience. Although, I was intimidated by the idea of having to utilize the internet, exclusively for assignments, it has turned out to be the best method afforded to me to successfully complete this course. It has also turned out to be the least expensive and time consuming, because there were so many resources that were provided, hyperlinked and free of charge. Having so much of the work literally at my finger tips enabled me to focus primarily on the subject opposed to time consuming and financial burden of locating the information and to research. With the assistance of the entire class and professor, I can honestly say that I have been provided every possible advantage to acquiring the requirements of this class, despite the personal obstacles along the way.

This course has provided me with essential elements required to be a better writer, reader and critical thinker. During the course of this class, I’ve realized the significant role it has played in my writing, reflection and personal perspectives. Since, I’ve always had an affinity for reading, writing and learning the challenges related to the assignments were minimal. Interestingly, having had the chance to read and assess the work of my classmates proved to be a learning tool. While being able to read the work of others was an advantage, critiquing it proved difficult for me. Critiquing the work of others has always proven to be somewhat troublesome, as I think that writing is as unique as finger prints and each individual piece should be recognized and accepted, as such. Though, there are also various aspects relating to each key element that requires the ability to process the texts and information, producing a profound knowledge surrounding both the writer and their work is the most significant.

A perfect example when describing the challenges of analyzing the work of other writers is one of the poems by Edgar Allan Poe. Having always read and loved Poe’s dark and eerie poems, I’ve never had the opportunity to descend into the ‘nature’ of his work. Conscious of Poe’s personal life and shortcomings, I understood ‘why’ he wrote the way he did. However, my awareness failed to recognize ‘how’ he wrote the way he did, his emotions beyond the apparent macabre. I’d never associated his work to sadness, only madness. In the class reading and discussion of, The Raven, I felt as if I’d never ‘read’ it before. I walked away with a sense of loneliness and loss, not the customary creepiness that previously followed. Without the thorough analysis of this work, I’d have completely missed the point that Poe was trying to convey in the poem. . Since reading is a strong point of mine, I didn’t place very much emphasis on it, which gave me what I needed to prepare for analyzing it.

As mentioned above, I am proficient in the key elements of the course, with the exception of analyzing the text. Before this class I was somewhat challenged by the ability to intentionally ‘see’ what is not apparent in all writing. Having only been previously capable of comprehending most of what is being substantiated based upon the mood/tone of the work; I have gained proficiency in reading between the lines. An example of my proficiency in reading, writing and thinking critically can be assessed in regards J. Hector St. John Crevecoeur’s, Letter III: What Is an American. Having read this piece, I was able to assess (in comparison) the contrasts and the similarities our personal views as to what defines an American. Another example would be my assignment relating to the work of, Henry David Thoreau’s Walden, or Life in the Woods. Reading this experience was imperative in critical thinking. While reading his experience in, Walden, I constantly saw myself in Thoreau’s place. Although, I love nature, I detest total isolation and deprivation from my favorite things. Naturally ‘feeling’ what the writer has written has provided me with the proper understanding of and the ability to critically think and write about what American Romantic literature and the concepts of what Beauty and Sublime are.

The ‘Time Travel and Defining Literature’ discussion in Week One provides an illustration of my skills in academic argumentation, evaluation and synthesis of information. I was able to utilize the information from the texts and explain how and why I feel the way I do regarding the subjects. This assignment gave me the opportunity to reflect on and explain my feelings. The assignment requiring me to devise a list of virtues is by far the most thought provoking, to date. It’s forcing me to really look into myself and how I see myself, both internally and externally. This project will pose as the catalyst to both my becoming a better writer and person.

Realizing that Early American history plays such a significant role in how society works and is influence has astonished me. Although, I recognize the political aspects of history, I’ve never associated it so closely to my modern way of life. This class provided many examples of the foundation, frame and structure of America, its people and future. Through, the works of Thomas Paine, Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin, James Madison and many others, I’ve learned so much of the purpose behind American culture. Also, Early American literature and history has contributed to my ‘understanding’ of what I believe and why. During the course of this class, I’ve reflected and amended some of my beliefs as part of some of my assignments. ‘Thirteen Virtues’ provided me with a blueprint of how to assess myself and what I needed to do to become a better person, through understanding, patience and humility. As significant as that assignment was in my quest, ‘Week 15’s online discussion starters, proved by far to be the major lessons of the course regarding self-assessment and comprehension. I was told to think about and post my spiritual beliefs, read those of my classmates, and then through disagreements, asked to come up with something relating to spiritual faith that everyone could agree on. Wow. That was the most thought provoking situation that I’ve been placed in during this class. And as a result, I can only imagine the depth of what Jefferson had to endure to devise such a concept in a time that was far less tolerant than ours. The counter part to the discussion was the most difficult to figure out and express, defining my faith and practices. I was forced to resolve to some of the likes and practices of all four- Calvinism, Deism, Unitarianism or Anglicanism, thus realizing the apparent contradictions of what I do and do not believe. Never have I had a class that challenged and forced me to assess my entire being. I have had to think about why I believe very personal aspects of my faith, what kind of person I am for believing it and how the choices to continue or cease will affect my life and outlook on life. Although, I’m conflicted on a few issues, I’m so grateful to have had the opportunity to look in and see myself.

The digital technology portion of the class has been mastered. Initially, I was intimidated by the idea of managing a blog, but quickly overcame the obstacle. I have come to really enjoy the online posting as the method of displaying my work, thoughts and opinions. I have gotten to really enjoy reading the work of my classmates, and having the opportunity to learn, share and debate amongst them via the blog and General Assembly. Dr. Brandon’s approach to how this class can and will function productively and successfully is right on, and I hope the opportunity to encounter more like it presents itself.

Overall, this class has provided me with the necessities to have a better life, academically and personally. As a student, I appreciate the lessons that enabled me to have the understanding necessary to comprehend and value Early American Literature and the major contribution is has provided this society and the world I reside in. As a free-thinking person, it has provided me with essentials to becoming a more wholesome person, who can understand my choices and appreciate learning from and accepting others. I know that I have some work to do to fully acquire everything that this class had to offer, but I am confident that I will attain all that I should. English 241 has proven itself to be as innovative as I thought it would have been, and luckily for me, I was prepared to embrace it. In comparison to the English courses I’ve had in the past, this class seems to be one that will challenge both my writing and learning abilities. Based upon the thoroughness of the lectures and online interaction, I was successfully able to approach all of my assignments from various perspectives to accommodate the requirements and expectations of my professor and the outline of this course.

Draft Revision

English 241 is undoubtedly the most engaging English/Literature course I’ve ever taken. Along with the fresh approach of utilizing a blog to showcase our work, communicating in both an intimate (classroom) and online setting is very attractive. In class we discuss and debate (respectably and sometimes otherwise) our points and views. Online we have the General Assembly which is the consistent and very active discussion board that we spend a lot of time conversing, sharing and learning in. Being told that we would be communicating predominantly through the online setup for the class; both intimidated and agitated me, as I thought it would be like taking a distance learning course (which I didn’t sign up for). Although, initially weary, I was primarily intrigued by the professor’s emphasis on his availability and desire to assist in any way to successfully complete the class. True to his word, Dr. Brandon has demonstrated nothing less than 100% willingness to provide the best atmosphere and learning experience possible.

This course is providing me with essential elements required to be a better writer, reader and critical thinker. The further along I go in the class, I realize its significance in my writing and reflection of my work. I’ve always had an affinity for reading, writing and learning, so it’s been less challenging in regards to following the reading and writing assignments. Although, I comprehend exceptionally well, I have always found difficulty with analyzing the work of others. I know that I’ve always faced my challenges because of the gratification I acquire when I succeed, and I always do. And because I relate this gratification to power and truly living, I’m prepared to face the challenge head on. There are also various aspects relating to each key element that requires the ability to process the texts and information, and producing a profound knowledge surrounding both, the writer and their work.

As mentioned above, I am proficient in the key elements of the course, with the exception of analyzing the text. Although, somewhat challenged by the ability to intentionally ‘see’ what is not apparent in all writing, I am capable of comprehending most of what is being substantiated based upon the mood/tone of the work. An example of my proficiency in reading, writing and thinking critically can be assessed in regards J. Hector St. John Crevecoeur’s, Letter III: What Is an American. Having read this piece, I was able to assess (in comparison) the contrasts and the similarities our personal views as to what defines an American. Another example would be my assignment relating to the work of, Henry David Thoreau’s Walden, or Life in the Woods. Reading this experience was imperative in critical thinking. I constantly saw myself in Thoreau’s place while reading his experience in Walden. Although, I love nature, I detest total isolation and deprivation from my favorite things. Naturally ‘feeling’ what the writer has written has provided me with the proper understanding of and the ability to critically think and write about what American Romantic literature and the concepts of what Beauty and Sublime are.

Although, I think that I need to work on various facets of Literary Knowledge, I am able to discern and apply the distinction of terminology associated with specific themes in literature in both formal and informal communication. I feel that the tone of the work denotes the formalities. Thoreau wrote in, Walden, what he felt and experienced, which provided a profound sense of intimacy and longing for life. Go Down, Moses, illustrates the perseverance those people possessed for their desire to be freed from bondage. In Common Sense, Thomas Paine, vigilantly wrote to the American people concerning adverse situations that were taking place and how to deal with it.

I am really excited about the communication aspect of this course. I really like the interaction amongst my classmates. I also appreciate the diverse views, opinions and personalities of everyone. Prime examples of how the class discussions are influencing me, are relative to character and open-mindedness. While interacting with my classmates and professor, I’ve gained some new perspective. I am learning that all the rights that we have in this country, are rights. And an individual’s choice to exercise that right is not wrong, despite how tasteless it may be. I am also learning that tolerance is a very broad situation, and that I’m not the only one making sacrifices to honor someone else’s ‘stuff’, people make the same sacrifice for me and mine. Although, I find it somewhat overwhelming to read and address so much of what everyone writes online, it’s very helpful, as well. The requirements aren’t harsh, but I find that there is so much to read and learn from the online discussions that I find it hard to stay on top of my original thoughts and opinions.

Overall, I know that I have some work to do to fully acquire everything that this class has to offer, but I am confident that I am coming along, successfully. English 241 is proving itself to be as innovative as I thought it may be. In comparison to the English courses I’ve had in the past, this class seems to be one that will challenge both my writing and learning abilities. Based upon the thoroughness of the lectures and online interaction, I know that I must approach all of my assignments from various perspectives to accommodate the requirements and expectations of my professor and the outline of this course.

Although, the prospect of working harder in contrast to previous writing courses, I am excited to know that I will ultimately be a better writer, reader and person. The aspect of the class that stimulates me the most is that my classmates appear to be very free thinking, which will provide me with the opportunity to get the most out of the class. Also, the texts required for the class is incredibly eclectic, thus providing significant amounts of literary knowledge from various perspectives. Since reading is a strong point of mine, I don’t plan to put too much emphasis on it, but instead I plan to prepare myself for the real lesson in being able to analyze what I’m reading.

Rough Draft Revision

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

My Favorite T.J. Quotes

It's amazing how profound Jefferson was, he had a strong, relevant voice regarding countless topics. I'd have to say that the two quotations that 'moved' me the most were:

1816 January 6. (to Charles Yancey) "If a nation expects to be ignorant & free, in a state of civilisation, it expects what never was & never will be."[7]

(The quote reminds me of my favorite quote by Albert Einstein: " Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results")

1790 April 4. (to Martha Jefferson Randolph) "Do not neglect your music. It will be a companion which will sweeten many hours of life to you."[10]

(I was drawn to this one simply because I love music and believe in the healing power TJ spoke of regarding its presence in life.)

VIRTUES-THE FINAL FOUR

This week has been an interesting one, as I’ve had to maintain a certain level of modesty when dealing with a few people. I had to deal with how to handle the truth, maintaining peace, keeping my cool and being wise enough to know when to apply each. I have a friend living out of state, one who I hold in high regard and care for deeply. In the past, he’d gotten into some trouble that landed him in federal prison. I personally, do not interact with people during their bids in jail, as I think that people should take responsibility for their choices, take the time to reflect on why they’re there and not burden me with it. Despite, my feelings about bad choices that land you in prison, I drove to Michigan and visited him there. We often rap about religion and virtues, as he comes from a family chock full o’ preachers and other religious leaders. My friend had a serious illness a few months back that landed him in the hospital in a near death situation. He’d previously told me that he’d had ‘some type of poisoning’. At the time, I didn’t feel like it was necessary to ask what type of poisoning, as I was just happy that he was ok. We often have peaceful yet opposing conversations about the effects of drugs, drug users and dealers, and my lack of empathy pertaining to any of it, specifically those that willingly poison themselves. His argument was that drugs are a ‘strong-hold’ and that addicts deserve some empathy. Well, this past week, during a conversation regarding domestic issues and bipolar disorders, he mentioned his cousin, whom had been arrested ‘recently’ and was heading to prison as a result of doing so. Immediately, he stumbled into a place where he had to explain why he ended up in the hospital for two weeks. This fool told me that he’d been dealing ‘dope’. On the night his cousin got arrested for ‘kicking in’ his girlfriend’s door, he’d been with him. When the police showed up, he (my friend) swallowed all the drugs he’d had in the car. Such a DUMB ASS. Keeping my temper intact, I calmly explained to him that although, I’m grateful that he’s still alive, I’m highly disappointed in his decisions to poison his people with drugs and attempt to sell it as a need to take care of his family. I informed him that although, I love him and that he’s a really good person, his choices fails to demonstrate the fundamentals of a Christian man. Moreover, he missed the lesson in his first stint in prison. I reminded him of the burden it put on not only his family, but his friends and other loved ones. And concluded the matter, stating that the only results in ‘that lifestyle’ is either prison or death…and that he was more than welcome to choose. At any rate, I wasn’t coming to visit him in a hell hole again.

I walked away from this conversation feeling a certain type of way regarding what I’d discovered. But in the end, I walked away feeling a certain kind of pride having incorporated all that I’d been working on during this project. I peacefully dealt with his lack of truth; maintained my composure; accepted him for what he’d done, yet remained consistent when respectfully expressing my disappointment in his lack of wisdom and faith that he allegedly has an abundance of; and modestly, but honestly explained my position to preserve myself regarding the situation.

This assignment has really given me the opportunity to reflect on the type of person I am. Before this assignment I was very black or white, very little room for gray. I now make room for gray, as I realize there are often reasons to look outside the box and approach every person and situation accordingly. I will continue to strive for the greatness that I am working toward, and as a result I’m certain that I will have better and more productive life in doing so.

And....More Progress on Virtues

As I acquire the goals that I’ve set during this assignment, I’m constantly aware how I interact with people, and in doing so, I’m able to work my way through my norm. This week I am focusing on: Honesty, Honor and Modesty. As I look into what it’s going to take to achieve these values, I must incorporate modesty in both honor and honesty. I know that honesty is going to be the most challenging because I come from a long line of assertive, outspoken and ‘brutally honest’ people, and integrity is a significant part of who I am.

My level of honesty has made me something of a median during adverse situations amongst family and peers, as I’m not prone to taking sides, so much as I am to dealing with facts relating to right and wrong. In any case where I’m ‘required’ to shed light on a situation, that requires criticism, I tell it as I see it. Although, I often keep my opinions to myself when its presence is not required, I’ll easily express how I feel if I’m prodded. I always consider feelings, but I think that telling the truth is far more significant when dealing with people than setting them and myself up for failure and later discourse as to my lack of integrity. To acquire my goal regarding how I express myself, I’ve decided that ‘how’ I express myself goes a lot farther than ‘why’. I’m taking extra precautions to ‘pad’ what I say, how I say it and the way I look when doing so. I hear that my body language and facial expressions are ‘brutal’.

Regarding, honor, I’m preparing to get over myself and let people be who and what they are. As a human being, I’ve always felt that the one thing one has to do for another is let them be who they are…funny, there are so many times (as of late) that I can to pin point where I have not practiced that adage. I’ve tolerated some of these new, flamboyant behaviors, but done so in a brute manner.

I know that all of these virtues are achievable because they are important to me and the person I want to grow into.

This coming week, I plan to work on: Truth, Wisdom, Peacefulness and Temperance. I choose to do these ones last because they are parts of my life that I work on daily and know that by maintaining these characteristics, I’ll successfully work my way into the others.

More.... Progress

I’ve continued to work hard to maintain the virtues that I’d previously discussed: Self-Preservation, Order and Tolerance. It appears that achieving these goals is becoming easier each day, especially Self-Preservation. I’m losing weight, feeling better, less sluggish and my clothes are looser. I’m excited that I am working to make my life and health better, but I’m ecstatic that I can see the results of it. Getting my life in order is also working to my advantage, although there are a few habits that I have to be conscious of. My level of tolerance has become existent, as I am aware of my reaction to previously ‘intolerable’ situations and people. Yay, Me!

I have begun the work on my Faith walk. I think I am becoming a little more careful in how I opt to worship, more willing to counter what simply IS and ask for references and various origins of certain aspects of Christianity. I find that there are far more religious people that simply accept and conform to what they’re told than those that do not. I know that this is going to be the most challenging of my virtues, because I will have to rely on the perspective of others to gain access and comprehension to various aspects of my faith. Despite the challenges, I’m prepared to do what it takes to have my own two feet to stand on regarding my faith.

The opportunity to work on the desired area of consistency hasn’t presented itself, yet. As a result, I’ve been using the time and occasion to work on less cumbersome situations. For instance, I attempt to stay on task when I’m plagued with sudden urges to stray from activities, responsibilities and duties that I’m doing at that time.

As I work on accepting things and people as they are, I have come to realize how fragile people are. It’s amazing how taking the time and really looking at people and their situations have given me an opportunity to develop a proper understanding of just how blessed I am to have the many advantages that I have in my life (familial support, finances, education, excellent health, to name a few). Acquiring this goal has also given me time to assess the person I am and how my decisions and behaviors affect others. I’m finding that this element of my pursuit to virtuosity is the most humbling of those on my list of virtues.

Working on these virtues have really given me an opportunity to sit down, slow down and simply stop and reflect on the person I am, want to be and was. I’m excited to know that although I’m reinventing an awesome lady, there’s plenty of room to become more amazing. This coming week, I’m planning to work on ‘Honor, Modesty and Honesty’. Of these three, honesty is going to be the doozy, simply because when people describe me, ‘Brutal honesty’ is usually one of the characteristics mentioned, as I tell it like it is. Toning it down, it going to be interesting and definitely a challenge, but we’ll see.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Social Practices-Revised

I’m really excited about this topic, as I have a few social practices that I think hinders this country. The basis is education and racism. Racism in regard to miscegenation and the affects racism have on Blacks and immigrants, specifically Mexicans. I’ll begin with racism and follow with education.

Racism

A lot of people would prefer to believe that racism no longer exists and is acknowledged as paranoia, until it’s directed at and personally affects them. The racism that I will discuss is based upon the indirect affects and my personal observances of it.

Here is a note I wrote to someone on a social network recently, as a way to dispel some of the asininity he was projecting upon his page.

I wrote:

“well, on a friday, about 10 yrs ago i was a salesperson for haynes furniture, and was having hella days bc lightning had hit the phone line (i had cavalier, but the lines were owned and serviced by verizon...so there was alot of mess to get it up and running... with the exception of my ex and i running around, using payphones and mess) and we'd been out of service for going on a week... THIS WAS DURING THE BIG PHONE/TELECOMMUNICATIONS STRIKE(AT&T, VERIZON, ETC)(remember that crap?)..so anyway, they've hired all these temps because everyone is out picketing their asses....and we're going bananas, i'm talking to this jerk that doesn't know anything, that sends me to that jerk that doesn't know anything to ...... eventually i get this ?allen? dude on the phone, very rude and is a supervisor, so i'm boiling when i get to work, because it's going to be a whole wkend now w/o a phone, etc, etc, etc.... so, the furniture company is upscale and expensive as hell and alot of the salespeople are really snotty(black, white, arab and asian) and have a tendency to LOOK at the people they are ‘willing to help’... i'm none of that. mess whether i sell anything or pass out in a recliner, i'm getting $1000 base bi-wkly, so i'm good. any who, i'm not a dog eat dog type, not hound dog the customers type, i'm just chill and ask anyone in proximity if i can assist... well, i run into this chill dressed (jeans, tee, sneakers)white man and his mexican wife, and ask if there is anything that i can do, he stops looks at me and says, "do you know that we've been here for over an hour and though all these salespeople are walking around and some not doing anything, you're the FIRST person to even acknowledge us, let alone approach us? i apologized and said that if i had i seen them earlier i'd have asked and then apologized. he explained that people do that alot, bc his wife is mexican and they make assumptions... well, anyway, they were looking to buy a HOUSE FULL OF FURNITURE, but were disgusted with haynes' attitude and felt that they should spend their money elsewhere, which was understandable, i'm the same way and advocate it... but as we're talking either i somehow tell him about my day or phone situation or his job comes up somehow.. GUESS WHO HE IS!?! no, he's not ?allen?... HE'S THE DIRECTOR OF THAT ENTIRE REGION and DEPT, which included being ?allen's? bosses, boss!! i was like are you serious? i spoke to allen today because my phone was(... )and he was a jerk(.....) and told him what was going on, he apologized to me told me to give him my information... i did, would you believe on a friday night, i was told that my phone would be restored on saturday, no later than noon!?!? and also, that he would have a talk w. allen about his demeanor/attitude... i had to go to work that following morning, but my then husband called and was like, "YO! VERIZON CAME AND FIXED THE LINE, THEN CAVALIER CAME THRU TO MAKE SURE THAT VERIZON HAD DONE WHAT THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO DO. THEN BIG MAN CALLED! WOW, YOU BE GETTIN CONNECTS IN THAT JUNT!"... i'm telling you what i told him, "YOU NEVER KNOW WHO YOU'RE DEALING WITH NOR TALKING TO, AND SINCE PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE, ALWAYS BE ON POINT." 17SEP10”

The above not focuses on so many different issues: class, race, power, the unknown….but what I’m attempting to convey is that people are people. NO ONE should be looked down upon based on anything other than personal knowledge or information relating to that person, their acts, deeds, etc. I find it comforting to know that although, class and race will always be prominent issues in society, most people simply see people as people and base their personal feelings and views on some form of validity.

Education

As a parent, I was told that my (then 5-year old son) was ‘slow’ and ‘COULDN’T’ read. He was in kindergarten, and I was under the impression that kindergarten is where you begin to read…it was when I started school. So, knowing my son for his ability to articulate in a manner that didn’t appeal to me as being slow, I stepped up. I took his ‘not yet learned’ ability as a failure on my part. That day, I quit school, went to Staples and purchased a large chalk board and an equally large dry erase board, a laser pin, chalk and markers. I made it my personal business to teach MY son to read. I wrote the letters on the board in various order and pointed to individual letters, giving him 1-2 seconds to identify it. Not doing so in time, I marked it. I made it a game. I created bingo cards with letters, not numbers (he knew those) and everyone that came by played it. I taught him to ‘slide and roll’ letter sounds into complete words (the way I was taught). Within one week, my son was reading small words. He was not slow. He is not slow. He is now 11, in the 6^th grade, reading on a high school level and head saxophonist in his school band…HE READS MUSIC.

As a school counselor, I witnessed what happened to my son, numerous times, except on the middle and high school level. I realized that the lot of black kids in Richmond Public Schools are screwed…not all of them, but too many!!

My point? If the schools would spend more time doing their jobs teaching the kids opposed to ‘labeling’ them (even medicating them), as well as, parents spending more time raising their own children opposed to sending them to school to be raised, the kids wouldn’t have such a high risk of failing… at both school and life.

The next note, I’d like to share is one written very recently to a friend on Facebook regarding education, specifically Virginia.

I wrote:

“sorry to inform you, but it's not just city schools, it's the whole lot... va only teach kids how to pass SOLs, they don't teach kids the fundamentals/basics anymore.... the difference is that whites have other resources and money to accommodate the bull**** of the public school systems, like tutors, and tutor schools... so what your kid goes to county schools, i dare you to have the same outlook if you move your kid to a state that still TEACH, your son will look and feel like a lost puppy...don't brag unless your kid is in a private school, montessori preferably... as far as summer breaks, whatever... black parents in AMERICA should start raising their kids, not expecting the system to do so... the IEP (individual education plan) level amongst NON-retarded(LD-learning disabled) black children is astronomical... i mean like 78% in some schools... why is that? well, you have poor, non-educated blacks that don't know anything, and are told that their kid/kids(there are some entire family of kids)-are slow, these ppl see a check...therefore you got a family living off of SSI at the expense of a child that is not retarded, but has a learning curve...the system can afford to look at that as no big deal, because the white ppl that make up all the IQ(intelligent quotient) tests have written years ago that blacks are inferior to whites AND blacks are UNable to learn(bell curve theory)....so you have the sellout parents and the system that would prefer to label you as a typical N word, than teach you... then you have the parents that just don't know, again somewhat not educated, that believe whatever is said to them by the teachers, admins, etc, despite what they KNOW about their children and go along with the IEP. the difference with these parents are that they are either too proud or are the cause(drugs, alcohol, etc), and are either embarrassed or guilt-ridden and don't want BENEFITS. then you have the parents that actually have retarded children bc of drugs, heredity, etc and are in total denial, but get checks and are always in your face, however they are not doing jack at home to better the child, and it shows. then the ones that make you REALLY sick are the ones that tell YOU that their child is retarded or slow, because they WANT a check, and forces their kid(s) to fail test, act slow,etc, etc, etc.. because they are told too.. you have teachers that actually do care and are like WHAT? UMM, NO! but the kid is going to do what is taught at home(bc this is the ONLY thing being taught at home, and kids actually do want to please their parents, esp ones that are neglected) so what can you do? i'll tell you what you CAN'T do, you can't blame the SCHOOL system for this one, though you can always look at some place in the system *ahem* welfare to blame for this form of coddling. i've seen very few parents that are actually on point, accepting of the issue, involved and handling business in these cases, and their children excel far beyond the CRITERIA that's set forth for their specific 'label'....tmr(trainable mental retardation), mr(mental retardation), ed(emotional disturbances), ld(learning disabled), etc....and would you FREAKIN believe that it's ILLEGAL to tell a kid that knows that they are labeled TMR, MR, etc what the acronym means?!?!?! these kids walk around unaware unless a arsehole like me tells them. at a 'special olympics' basketball game there was a petition to 'stop the use of the 'R' word' going around for everyone to sign, i didn't sign that CRAP and passed it to the next person... some of my close friends that noticed, laughed and asked me why? i told them, because i use the R word. it's used in the formal labeling of these kids and alot of them ARE dang on RETARDED, but since no one has told them, they look down on the physically inept...forget that, i'm not signing it and will continue to use it where it's due. i've never been a follower, fake nor any of that conformist bullCRAP that people like to jump on the bandwagon for, and will not start today, bc it might hurt someone's feelings. this system is so dang on asinine, convoluted and contradictory that i sometimes fear sending my kids to school, but i know that there ARE some well intentioned people working, and though they know their JOB, they actually try to do a good job for the kids... you wouldn't believe all the teachers that retired, quit and etc because of the same reasons i'm telling you.. i mean teachers that taught for decades and then bush comes along and no child left behind sends the drop out rates soaring, crippling teachers from teaching, and etc... i send my big babies off in the mornings knowing that I AM THEIR DRIVING FORCE, and that they will be taken seriously by the teachers that i send them to, bc those teachers know, i'm not the one and neither are my children. so, don't be comforted by county schools, babe... his school like the rest is just a few steps away from segregation anyway...if it is not already.... think about this and check out how many schools are POPPING UP in subdivisions. subdivisions are sometimes racially mixed, but the classes are the same and these days race and class are one in the same, thus these NEW schools are clustering based on the demographics, resulting in segregation... just look around yourself... i live in richmond's northside (brook road area) our middle and high school ZONE schools are henderson and john marshall both about 99.9% black.. the elementary school in my ZONE is a 50/50 school(race and class...the gov's daughter went there w. my daughter). so how come that same ZONE is not the same for middle and high school... lemme share. my daughter is honors, so when she was in 5th grade, with gov's daughter, she and all the 5th grade class was given the OPPORTUNITY to go to an out of zone school(binford or albert hill) both in THE FAN. ok, the letters were sent home, i signed the letter that day and sent it back, selecting Binford. months go by, she tours the school w the other kids. TWO months before school is out, i receive a letter stating that there was not enough room for her. ok, fine, but smells like bullCRAP (i was working at henderson middle at the time and we had 1 white kid, a city counsel woman's son).. where are all the white kids in the area going? they are going to binford and albert hill. the system and parents has surreptitiously clustered/separated these kids. how do i know? well i work in the zone school, virtually no whites in a zone that is 50/50. also, speaking with parents of kids that go to my then middle school, that had younger kids in 5th grade w. my daughter... you know what they said when i asked where their black kid was going? they all said the same thing, "i don't know, he/she is supposed to be going to binford/hill, but there wasn't enough space." i knew then what was going on, the white kids were the ONLY ones that actually had the OPPORTUNITY for open enrollment, but they had to send the forms home to EVERY 5th grader to be truly UNfair. all the black 5th graders went to henderson, unless parents moved or used an address for the school out of zone. i didn't pursue it, as i'm cool with my zone school(same as that counsel woman) and i was going to be at john marshall the following year, next door to my daughter. i know that my daughter, like so many other gifted black children in this city, deserves the same education as the next possible ivy leaguer, but she does.... she has me. binford and albert hill have far better accreditation than henderson, thus more funds, personal donations, allotments, and etc to accommodate and benefit the many whites, along with the defaulted blacks that attend bc they are actually IN that zone. and if you ever had an opportunity to see the classrooms, you can bet your butt that black(and hispanic) and white(and asian) kids are separated in both race and class."

Sha and Nature

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